Just knowing..

Like a dream, on my knees at the altar of a church my eyes carved circles in the carpet as tears poured from my eyes; it was that moment when I came to the saving knowledge of Jesus Christ. It wasn’t like I had never heard the name Jesus; after all I was baptized as a child and completed my confirmation as a young girl. I had prayers memorized, the whole bit.This was different. There was a knowing replacing every tear that fell from my eyes; it was as though I was watching the hand of God pull this long list of pain from my heart. What seemed inwardly like this euphoric supernatural “I can’t believe this is really happening” moment, outwardly looked like mascara smeared all over my face and my inability to breathe ha!

For a long time after this happened, I was obsessed with watching “I am second” videos on YouTube because I was searching for people who would share their personal “knowing” experience; somehow confirming my own. Sure enough everyone had a story and the beautiful part was they were all so different as if God wrote the story just for them.

Recently I was talking to a loved one about her “knowing” moment and she shared something that spoke volumes to my spirit. She described the moment she came home for the first time after experiencing the Glory of God in her hospital room. She said when she walked into her house she was surprised to admit that home didn’t feel like home anymore. Suddenly she not only knew about her born again transfiguration experience but she could feel it. Little knowing’s raced through her mind that heaven was her home and she was, by His grace here, passing through and walking out a plan that God had predestined for her life.

This is just one example of (The Art of Transfiguration) a babe in the Lord realizes, this home is only temporary. She comes home only to understand she breaths because of Him and Him alone….. She is suddenly aware Jesus is why Joy is Joyful and can now accept in her heart how something so beautiful can come from something so seemingly awful. To her this sudden illness was a gift and she is now determined to bask in His presence until her mission is complete. While continuing to be transformed by His Spirit, letting forgiveness in and letting go of the things God did not intend to be displayed on the mantel of her heart. What a God!

You see in Matthew 17, Jesus took Peter and Brothers James & John up on a high mountain, it was then that they saw sunlight pour from the face of  Jesus. Jesus didn’t alert the media, he didn’t entice them to join by telling them they would be completely blown away with a “knowing” experience! He didn’t tell them this was going to be THE moment they would be able to see the “kingdom of God” Luke 9:27 He just invited them to pray. We don’t ever know when God is going to bless us, but when He does, we should never take it for granted.

In this same way that God the Father showed the true identity of Jesus to Peter, James & John on the mount of transfiguration, is the same way that our friends and family will truly know that we have been born again, His light shines from our lives when we walk in His spirit.

28 And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who[i] have been called according to his purpose. 29 For those God foreknew he also predestined to be conformed to the image of his Son, that he might be the firstborn among many brothers and sisters. 30 And those he predestined, he also called; those he called, he also justified; those he justified, he also glorified.


This Holiday season I have been able to see how much I have been transfigured in the last 5 years and I can also see how far I still have to go. Thank God for His amazing Grace.


“What I spent, is gone; what I kept, I lost; but what I gave away will be mine forever” – Ethel Andrus


One Comment Add yours

  1. Claudia says:

    I am looking forward to my “Knowing” day!!!


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